But I am so sad, I miss him so much, I hate the present reality and my life. "Home" for me was with him. Now I am exposed, alone. How did my best friend in the world do this to me???
I've been asking myself that for some time, Piano. I think back to the good times - our first kiss, when he asked me to marry him, our wedding - and wonder where in the world that man went. It's sad, it's painful, and like having a baby, this experience makes you see life in a completely different way. Things will never be the same again.
I'm SO sorry that you have to go through this. He's being a complete idiot and he knows it, which is why he doesn't want to say goodbye to you. Shame and guilt, through and through. But he has to learn this lesson on his own.
Hang tough, Piano. You can do this! Thank goodness your parents are there to help.
