I want to be part of the group...

[Jstar]

well my niece was supposed to come over to watch the kids and let me use her car. i wanted a face to face with h to first of all find out where he now lives, see it, put my mind at ease if i was going to have him or mil watch the kids while at work.

she didn't show up, said her sleep was far more important, good lord i'm up at 430 to get me ready to get the house ready to watke the kids up to get them ready, so i can work as a teacher with no car no phone and NOW no babysitter.

she worked a week and said it was to far not enough money, but she's illegal and now backing out of everything.

so at 930 at night i make a phone call to h, no way did i want to do it, he's all ahppy and jolly, who wouldn't be if you drink all the time, sleep with anythign that will spread their legs, gamble and hang out in vegas, with mommy doing all cooking and laundry.

i am selling my children to the devil so i can provide for them. i have no idea where they will be all day, what skanks will be around them, if they will eat, not sleep on a dog cage, nothing and i'm supposed to take, jstar they will be with me or my family....that's supposed to make me feel ok about leaving my children.

i have scoured the city for someone i can afford, all my coworkers have, sure an offer of $20 an HOUR, i might as well just foreclose on my house.