Also I am feeling crappy about talking to the friend. I know that i need to just work on healing myself and loving me. At first it felt good to chat with him but now I am finding myself trying to analyze the emails and trying to decide if he is manipulating me or writing things that have hidden meaning. I feel like i might be reading too much into things. I am not going to be able to just enjoy the friendship b/c I am going to be constantly questioning every little thing that is said. I feel like I just shouldn't contact him again. Of course if he doesn't contact me I am going to feel horrible and feel rejected.
This means for sure that I shouldn't be talking to him...correct?
M=42 H=51 Common-law 6yr Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son Bomb dropped January 2013
