I went to the beach this weekend with my D. It was nice to get away. Just got back and feeling pretty down. Empty house except not empty in that his stuff is still here which means that likely he will be waltzing in sometime in the am. I was looking in his email again and I realize that he must be paying for her cell phone. There was a message sent to his email from telus mobility and when you open it is is welcoming her to telus. It makes me so sick to realize that this has been in the making for a year and maybe even longer because that is just when I now know the relationship started but in actual fact it would have been started longer than that.
This means that it would have started before my D even turned 1. Could this have been going on before my D? I can't understand him. I really never detected a thing until july/august of last year. I know it isn't about me but I still can't get past this. I just feel ill again and depressed.
M=42 H=51 Common-law 6yr Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son Bomb dropped January 2013
