TIME.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................all this takes TIME.
If it is any consolation, I too had a rough day, 14 months later and I had some pretty bad moments, but I know Sundays are like that for me, I expect them and I work through it.
The thoughts running around in your head will fade or you will just get used to them and then they fade but it takes TIME. It does get easier, and you will look back at today a month from now and you will see how far you have moved. That is why I keep a journal, so I can go back and read and see my progress. Sometimes I just write random thoughts, sometimes I write to her, sometimes to GOD.........just get it out.
Again, you should be proud of yourself. You are doing the hard work, asking the hard questions, making the right moves with regards to your W.
Step away from the oven......let the cake bake some more, the A is not going well, trust me. It is not like a normal R where 2 people meet and everyone they know is so happy for them. Everyone they see knows the deal, there will always be a "white elephant" in the room. People don't want to be around that, it makes them uncomfortable.
Hang in there, what you are doing/have done is working you just can't see it right now.
Hang in there,
Cheers
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
