the other fact of being unable to make the right decision. she bitches that i don't make decisions with the kids, but then when i do, it turns out to be the wrong one! for example: today my 14 yr old son went biking on a dirt trail. i told him he needs to wear a helmet; he refused. i let him go anyway not enforcing my rule. i get a phone call from him saying to come get him because he fell and got hurt--nothing major, just a cut.
of course it could've been worse!
turns out that my bride was totally against him going on this trail, but bit her tongue until the incident. she lashed into me saying that i should've enforced the helmet rule, but she didn't want to say anything!
my life with her as parents has been hell!!!! she always proves me wrong, and makes me feel like a complete idiot! i do make tons of parental mistakes, but she hardly makes any, and it drives me crazy!! or i should say that when she does make a mistake, i don't pulverize her with guilt or try to make her feel like an idiot!
this has been a complete thorn in both our sides. she can never ever let things pass quietly just saying that i am only human and an man and that women know better and let by-gones-be-by-gones! it always has to go into a place that is dark and deep--like being locked in a box being given the third degree: "why did you do this? what were you thinking? what made you say that?"
she's always the bad guy, and i'm always the good guy as well, making her nuts!
this attitude of hers--her way or the highway--has been like this since day one, and i now realize why i've put up with her righteous attitude: our sex life. wrong answer! how wrong this really is!!! there's is nothing i can do that is right! when i don't react like her, because i am a very laid-back person, she gets angry at me! then when i do react angrily at the kids, she says, "why are you yelling at them?"
it's always a catch-22 with her!! even when i do make my point or win an argument, she never ever admits her wrong, her fault, or say that i am right!
becoming parents has really put a wedge between us as husband and wife, and i truly feel that due my errors as a parent throughout the years has put a toll on her, on me creating a complete lack of respect from her towards me developing this sexless marriage.
if she has no more respect for me as a man, as a person, how and why would she want to have sex with me more than once a month, when she only wants it? why should she go out of her way to make me feel good if i don't make her feel good?
