My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Thanks Lance and Brooklyn -
I get a little low sometimes / especially on the weekends.

I picked up a book yesterday and it was actually about reconciliation. But that's not the reason I picked it up. The bulk of the book is about finding out who you are and gaining your emotional equilibrium back. I thought this might be a good place to start since I am struggling with this issue of "who am I" and "what do I want".

As much as I try to deny it - I am still very raw. And I continually try to interpret his behavior and make it rational - I honestly think I do this because in some sick way I still respect him too much or have more respect for the man I knew than the man he is today. That may sound crazy - but it is probably more me holding on to a thread of the rope instead of dropping it completely.

So...I've got work to do!