WH cancelled his visit to bub tomorrow. "I can't come tomorrow anymore. I am pretty distressed right now actually. I'll call you tomorrow afternoon".
Things ended not so well on his last visit to bub (3 days ago) when I insisted on knowing when he thought the time would come to actually discuss with me what went wrong with the M. He said now is not the time and the place (meaning 'now' generally, not that day specifically)..when I was pregnant that wasn't the 'time or the place' either, cos i was pregnant.. So I pointed that out to him with raised voice and he didn't like it. Rightly so.
His text has made me feel guilty. For letting my anger interfere with his visits.
And yet some of me still thinks, given everything, given the stress I've been under, it's understanable I get mad.
But anger is now a recurring thing chez moi. It has to stop.
