No more "melty man". Thats one of my 180's. Calm, confident and assertive. And I know I need to be in that bed but was just so tired and I didn't even wake up once. Which I normally do a couple of times a night. Won't happen again.
M36 W39 D6 S4 Married 10 years EA began 7/10 Bomb Dropped 8/6/10 Filed for D 10/6/10 Divorce put on hold 12/10 Currently Piecing
Well the carnival was cancelled due to rain but took my D bowling instead and had a fantastic time (S fell asleep and stayed home with W). Even bowled next to an attractive, recently D woman and her kids. Got to talking and she asked for my number. Told her I was flattered but still trying to work on my marriage. She told me where she worked and if it didn't work out to look her up. It was a huge confident boost for me knowing that if we don't reconcile that I'll be able to find someone else.
But for some reason feeling very overwhelmed today, and can't stop crying (I guess that is normal). Have my first therapy session this afternoon and just received my copy of DB. Can't wait to get started.
Going to try the carnival again tonight and will have a great time with the kids.
M36 W39 D6 S4 Married 10 years EA began 7/10 Bomb Dropped 8/6/10 Filed for D 10/6/10 Divorce put on hold 12/10 Currently Piecing
Well the carnival was cancelled due to rain but took my D bowling instead and had a fantastic time (S fell asleep and stayed home with W). Even bowled next to an attractive, recently D woman and her kids. Got to talking and she asked for my number. Told her I was flattered but still trying to work on my marriage. She told me where she worked and if it didn't work out to look her up. It was a huge confident boost for me knowing that if we don't reconcile that I'll be able to find someone else.
It never ceases to amaze me the VIBE that men, especially, appear to give off when their wives go walkaway/wayward, the guy 'nads up, and then other women come a-calling! It happens VERY frequently (and did with me).
... amaze me the VIBE that men, especially, appear to give off when their wives go walkaway/wayward, the guy 'nads up, and then other women come a-calling! It happens VERY frequently (and did with me)...
Especially the married ladies that are unhappy with their M....
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
Met with my therapist yesterday and she is a great lady. I am lucky to have her. She made me realize that this isn't all my fault and the wife is as much to blame for the sitch we are in as I am.
Had a great time at the carnival with the kids and I thought the W. Little did I know that every time I was off on a ride or playing a game she was talking with EA. At this point I feel lost and really don't feel like working on things with her. When we got home I told her how disrespectful that is to both myself and her children and she didn't seem to care.
I am still working on things for myself and my children but do I give up trying to save my marriage? The foolishness I feel now is way worse than the embarassment I'm going to feel when we tell people we are separating/divorcing. She has this grand illusion that her life is going to be so much better if she was on her own. What she doesn't realize is that I'm not going to roll over and give in to her demands but fight her tooth and nail for everything. I am NOT going to be one of these weekend dads. My children are my world and if anything I want them at least half the time.
I HATE this roller coaster ride.
M36 W39 D6 S4 Married 10 years EA began 7/10 Bomb Dropped 8/6/10 Filed for D 10/6/10 Divorce put on hold 12/10 Currently Piecing
In MY bed. That boundry has been established. I'm getting to the point where I don't care anymore and I'm detaching myself from the sitch. The people who have my wife's ear are feeding her crap and she's painting me out to be an absentee father, which is the furthest from the truth. If she wants to leave then there's the door and don't let it hit you in the ass on the way out. This new feeling of empowerment is exhauliterating and I love it.
M36 W39 D6 S4 Married 10 years EA began 7/10 Bomb Dropped 8/6/10 Filed for D 10/6/10 Divorce put on hold 12/10 Currently Piecing
