Doing okay - friend came over from work with a bottle of Red Rock and we downed it. Grandson came to spend the night right as I was going to bed, so no problems there.
I spent some time thinking about my H, and whether he is angry, desperate, both, hitting bottom, about to check out, etc. All the things one thinks about when a loved one has PTSD. I know I didn't break him, and can't fix him, I just can't help but feel sympathy, and sorrow that his anger is fixed on me.
I don't know what I'd do at times without the people on this board. You've kept me on the 'straight and narrow' more times than I can count.
I've been better at responding and not reacting. That's a big plus for me.
I decided not to respond to the Email. He hasn't sent another. His number is still blocked on my phone, so he can't call. Another friend is coming by today so I can hem his curtains. Try to stay busy.
