I'm changing tactics. I've realized that doing a lot of the LRT is very counterproductive to my situation, and actually damaging my chances with reconciliation. Instead of pushing my wife to leave quickly, I've done a 180.
I've lived my life in fear. Avoided confrontations. Been afraid to fully commit. Quick to run away.
I'm not going to let my fear drive my life anymore.
I've told her I'm fighting for her, and our marriage. I don't expect anything. I didn't when I first asked her out. Nor on the first date.
No expectations. Just hope.
This is how I've wanted to live my life, how I dreamed I would be. And I squandered 46 years.
She may still leave me to figure things out. She may not figure them out. She might decide not to leave. She might never come back.
