(((Hope))) Glad to hear from you and know you're still out there. Stay strong, keep the resolve, remember there has to be a LONG period of consistent behavior to begin to make up for what he's put you through. He's nowhere near that yet.
Keep us posted--
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.