My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Thanks to all ~ made it through another work week. Ready to face the weekend. I'm tired and really still very sad. Hope to have a productive weekend - but tonight I'm going to rest.

People are starting to find out and I have been getting some nice emails from friends. I basically say the kids and I are obviously devastated but we are trying to respect H's need to find happiness. They have been responding "how classy" - or "wow - you sound good" / at least the words are there maybe soon the feelings will follow.

I am trying to work around these feelings that maybe H is right / maybe he has never felt much for me. I just get in these funks where his words and actions over the last few months - and his deceptions over the last few years - begin to speak louder than anything else. I don't think H misses me at all. To him I represent accountability and maybe even misery. No one else I know views me that way (that I know of:)) - I just want to begin to find ways to overcome this hurt and to feel really good about myself.

As always - thanks for listening to my whines.