True true true. The need to explain rather than accepting a compliment. Must continue to work on that!
Today was a first. I called Bill about the current fiasco, reiterating what I wrote in a letter about the issue at hand... taking accountability and wanting to move forward to resolve it. No cowering, just matter of fact. I added that we have separate lives, that I had no connection to him aside from him being the father of our children who are old enough to handle having separate relationships with each.
And that his current actions are thwarting his goals and mine.
We'll see what happens.
At some point I can just let go. Let go of lots of stuff though man oh man does fear freeze the bejesus out of me. Like dumping the house at a ridiculous price so as not to be burdened by the mortgage; getting a job to help with the expenses.
It's odd. I've been a stay at home mom for two and a half decades, my former career a distant memory. Now I'm.. hello.. go back to work, get back on my feet, develop my own life that not a complete reflection on my childrens.
Move move.. shake rattle and roll.
*hugs*
And to realize I have more to gain than to lose by letting go of what is too much... in so many ways.
