Soleil, that makes sense on so many levels. I remember back I believe in 2007 when STBXW was being exceptionally frosty she told me at night I was condescending to her and her family and I was only nice to people when I needed something from them.
Forget love. She didn't even like me. I kept soldiering on, looking for fixes that weren't there.
There's so many things now I see she didn't like about me. She didn't like my job -- newspaper reporter. She didn't like how I always wanted to go places and do things with the girls rather than sit around at home. I can go on and on.
On my end, I didn't like how she only wanted to talk about her job and her family. I didn't like how she never wanted to go out and do anything. I didn't like how her job came first over the family and me. I didn't like that she never asked how my day was or come to any of my work or recreational events.
IR, I was having a really good week and then that phone rang and I was shocked at my physical reaction to it. I calmed down pretty quickly after and that's good.
Her trip ends today and then it's back here to reality. I find myself not wanting to talk to her ever. I'm considering contacting the girls' teachers and asking for separate teacher conferences this year. I was uncomfortable last year and I want to be able to ask questions freely without worrying how they'll be interpreted.
I really, really, really want to separate myself from her as much as possible and once I can stomach being around her then draw myself back in. That may be a very long time from now. But I need to not make it obvious for the girls' sake.
I'm soooo glad school is almost back in session. There'll be no need to see her on kid handoffs.
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