I am still in a confused state although handling it well.
W has been nice lately. I have been nice but somewhat distant. Last night she noticed that I was staring at her when she bent over to pet the dogs. Usually she would make a negative remark, but this time she turned around and simply said "you're looking at me". I said, "yes, I haven't done that for a long time - forgot how good you look". She smiled...
I don't know anymore what approach to take. 180 certainly has worked but how far and how long I need to do that.
The looming deadline of telling her about my decision is also around the corner.
