Been thinking about our conversation and am going to hit you with a 2x4, feel free to hit back.
Have you thought about or discussed with your IC that you are depressed? Maybe not clinically but you are on the edge.
My advice for right now is to look into all the different ways to pull yourself out of depression. Are you excercising? Eating properly, vitamins, sleeping enough (I know you weren't last night LOL). I am sure there are other things.
A quick list of signs of depression
What are the symptoms of depression in women?
Symptoms of depression in women include:
* persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood * loss of interest or pleasure in activities, including sex * restlessness, irritability, or excessive crying * feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, hopelessness, pessimism * sleeping too much or too little, early-morning awakening * appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain * decreased energy, fatigue, feeling "slowed down" * thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts * difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions * persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain
Let me also say that depression would be a perfectly natural state for you to be in.
