Hey guys, A lot has happened in the past year for me and family... From the 2nd time W dropped the D bomb in Jan of this year to the Affair. Living together while being separated in the same house to now living on my own again; so many emotions it just plain out sucks.
I first want to give a special thanks to Sandi, Allen, Puppy for advice and support also the many others for their help as well. Don’t get me wrong I still have a little hope left in me and I think my W will realize someday what she had in front of her was not that bad. It maybe a few months, or even a few years; however I just don’t feel that I/we have given everything we could have and will always wonder why?
I have question for Sandi what was your turning point when you wanted to work on M. See I don’t know any more if W still is in touch with OM, but she still has the in love feelings for him!! See I can forgive and put that part of our life behind as she states it had no part in her decision. I know it certainly did not help us with our other problems that we were working on to make our M stronger.
As I read “Not Just friends” which is a great book and highly recommend. I told W if she is with OM are friendship would be in danger and I don’t know where we would stand. It may not be right but that’s how I feel about that right now. Maybe this was her escape from the marriage. As W told me when I first busted the PA at least it was after I told you I wanted a D like that made things anything better.
Cutting the rope is hard, but to be happy maybe that’s what I need to do. Right now I just not sure what is right? Any thoughts or input would be appreciated by anyone thanks. I posted this in my other thread but I think it’s great and made sense!!
Entitled: Moving On Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness. Without them we will never be free of our past. We deserve to move on. We need not be held hostage to our past if we are willing to release and grow beyond them. By: Tina Dayton
Well as Our Anniversary approaches at the end of this month. It will tough, but I will get through (Maybe W will do some thinking probably not ha-ha). Whatever happens to me I will get through in the end... Just having a hard time and very lost!! Well again thanks to everyone for their help, support, and advice. Talk later Hope
