Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

My problem has always been that even if i try to listen, she rarely talks. She silently disagrees with me. Feels like I'm trying to manipulate with her.

That email is the first time she's actually spelled out exactly how she feels to me. She never talks ever about this stuff - she just tries to ignore it and avoid it. Not even in MC does she talk. Unfortunately, I'm not built like that.

So, even if I do become a good listener I have to learn to STFU. And not talk. And invite her to talk. And not talk.

I've read that email probably 200 times now. I feel such utter embarrasment that the one person in the world that I love the most, and want to spend the rest of my life with, has been made to feel like this by me, and me alone. That's painful.