tired of this

[A_goodman]

Ken,

I guess I took a long time typing that and got your reply out of order. It is a distinct possibility. I have no way of knowing. I ALMOST could care less. I really ought to become super slueth and figure it out, but I really want to focus on things that give me joy and help me grow. We can't fix this if it's there. I am unequivical about my unwillingness to live in an open R. She knows that. The trust has been shot for a long time. She knows that too. And she knows what it's going to take on her part to repair it. Thus far she's unwilling, and so thus far, there is no progress to be made. I am hanging in to see where MC will take us. Right now, I'm learning a lot about her motivations and about my REAL failings, so it is good. Eventually the MC wheel will swing back around to lines in the sand (Boundaries) and I will make my final stand. Part of that stand will be my requirement to know exactly what has been going on.

All in all, my M is broken whether she's being faithfull or not. To me there's not levels of broken. it's broken or it's not. I've let go completely. She is her own person and will be left free to enjoy whatever consequences are coming her way. hopefull, she chooses wisely.