Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

H called me at lunch today, took me by surprise to hear his voice. And that he called instead of e-mailing was odd, too. Now I'm all out of sorts and upset and hurting. I was hurting before, but now it's more pronounced.

He said he has a cold that's just getting worse, can he skip tonight and take DS over the weekend instead? Whatever was convenient for me. I commented that it seems we have yet to go a week where he goes the full Thursday to Wednesday without seeing DS and he said it's a long time, that he was trying to make it fair to me but it is a long time without seeing DS and something we can think about.

Fair to me? He's trying to make it fair to me. Tell me, what about this entire situation has been fair to me? None if it. And I'm crying almost every day because of that.

I most likely will let him take DS on Monday, but not on Saturday or Sunday. I have plans with DS on Saturday and a birthday party on Sunday. It will be Tuesday to Monday, so comparable to the Thursday to Wednesday stretch.