Tbh, it makes me angry at myself that I allowed myself to become a "Victim".

Also makes me upset that W tells friend and others about everything she did wrong, but not me.

Due to my Alcohol issues, I basically had to fully confess everything so that I could move on. Didn't want to but I did it and I no longer have anything to hide. No denials left. I had to do this for me without expectations of my W giving me an "Atta Boy".

When I did this I did not expect anything from her and never really thought about it til now. Just find it disturbing that she can communicate to everyone except me.

I'm trying to refuse to keep over thinking this and will just keep following the DB techniques for ME. There is definitely a momentum shift right now. It's gonna get better day by day and accelerate becoming a man again.

Anyone care to give me a 2x4? Or maybe an adjustment to my thought process?

I'm seriously overwhelmed with all the changes I need to do and I find myself dreading hearing from her. It's like I feel "just leave me alone" right now. Is this good? Normal?

I mean I love her, but right now I need to love myself again.