My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Thank you for taking the time to follow my sitch--and to write such a thoughtful post. just to clarify--

I was fairly specific--I asked, "what do you need from me, what do you want?" to say "what's up" would not have yielded much useful information, I'm afraid.

he's never said anything about "casual." often, quite the opposite. it's that rubber-band thingy--the closer it gets, the more he reflexively pulls away. until he gets close again. mixed messages...I don't think he knows what he wants.

the "jealousy thing"--he assumed I was on a date, and I didn't correct him, mostly as an experiment really. it wasn't intentional. and the response was...interesting. that's all. I wasn't putting much stock in it; my brain is research-oriented these days (I can't help it, I'm soaking in it!) and when the scenario presented itself, I couldn't help making it an observational study.

I don't know what's going to happen here; I've tried to back off and detach and all that stuff, and I'm not counting on anything; this is a learning experience. At worst, we got to help each other through some of the worst times of our lives and we were as kind as we were able to be to each other--and that's not a bad thing. I really didn't want to feel these feelings--perhaps ever again, certainly not before there was more healing, but things don't always go according to plan. The last thing I want to do right now is to go looking--I'm just not ready for all the games and stuff involved in all of that. Not because of Texas guy, but because my life is already rather overwhelming at the moment.

I hope that makes sense....