You can't loose yourself in this. You have come too far to even think about that right now. That would be like quitting on mile 26 of a marathon! You have gone through too much, and you have kept your kids interests at heart. You just can't forget about yourself!
Keep that trailer and kitty cat thought alive. You have things to look forward to. It's just the uncertainty that is killing you. I am going through the same thing as we speak. Not knowing what will happen suck! But none of us can tell the future. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life, you just never know. And if it is, I bet you will feel really silly for feeling so bad today, right?
I try and remind myself that my kids will always be my kids, and I will always be their Daddy. There is nobody on the face of this earth that can change that. The rest just comes down to decisions. Do I want to be the best Father possible? Do I want to be happy? Will I move on with my life to allow this to happen? God, that is so simple! I am going to have to remember those three questions!
Keep your head up man. Go somewhere private and let those tears out. Nothing wrong with that. I can only really let them flow when I talk to my Mother on Skype about my sitch, but it helps. Then pick yourself up, fill your head with good memories of your kids, and carry on. Continue doing your best, because you are correct, that is all that you can do.
PH,
That was a heart wrenching story for me, but you are right, but how you dealt with it is exactly how I am "trying" to deal with mine. I hope all is well with you!
D&C
Me:33 W: 31 M: 8 T: 13 S: 6 D: 8 months The Bomb 7/22/10 "I can't do this anymore, I'm done" http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2048765&page=1
