Still trying to find my way

[Abbey]

Back to the one minute, 5 minute rule. Try doing something that takes you 1 minute and 5 minutes each day. Every day.

Mine, FWIW was at first, going to get the mail. It took me about 2 minutes every day. And trust me,... there were days it took everything I had in me to get out the door to do it.

I *know* what depression does to you, and how it grips you and isn't interested in letting you go.

Envision yourself busting free. Punching yourself through the wall. This goes back to "The Secret". While simplistic in it's professed success, it still has merit. See yourself breaking free, immerse yourself in that vision.

There is SO much on your plate right now, and the depression is crippling. The only way to fix it, is to keep make new routines.

Oh... and the dreams thing. Many folks go through all kinds of wacko and vivid dreams on anti-d's. Mine made me mad. Understand that they are simply dreams. It's one of the things you're going to have to look at reprogram in yourself HOW you let them rip your insides out. They're dreams, brought on by your meds. Don't let them define your life and your progress.

*hugs*