MIL picked up the girls this morning and I won't see them until next Wednesday. I'm a little down about that, but relieved I don't have to see MIL, younger SIL or STBXW for a while now.
I'm even thinking about STBXW's South Dakota trip. We took several long trips together.
Cozumel for our anniversary. Great, great, great trip, but hey we were newlyweds.
Puerto Vallarta our second year in. OK. STBXW was such a wallflower that we didn't do much except lay around the pool and shop.
Dallas, Texas, when D11 was 2. An OK trip. D11 was sick the entire time so I can't put this on STBXW.
Las Vegas without kids for our 10th anniversary. This is where we just don't communicate well. She said she had a great time on the trip. I didn't see it. I saw someone grumpy the entire time. She sucked the joy out of Vegas if you can believe that.
Disney World in 2008. We had to take the MIL along. The marriage was crumbling so I knew deep down it was our last big trip together. The girls loved it, but not a fun moment between us.
So STBXW is in South Dakota for a week. Big deal. I've known her long enough to know I'd be having a lousy time if I was with her.
The fact is, I honestly don't like STBXW. I was so physically attracted to her and addicted to being in a relationship that I was willing to fight through that fact.
Monday, at the family campground, when I was down about not being able to be down there together as a family. I realize now that almost none of my positive memories have anything to do with STBXW. The first weekend we were down there together and the couple of days we spent there after we got married were great times.
Otherwise, my happy moments at the campground are entirely because of the girls. That's what I miss -- time with them. I don't actually miss STBXW. I thought about that last night at the water park. STBXW would have spent the entire time sitting in a chair watching and asking when were we going to leave.
I'm letting go more of the rope.
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