We have a clothing optional beach in Toronto... Anyway, yesterday after a long day of volleyball and football in 90 degree F weather (agency picnic) I went to bible study in the evening. We have prayer afterwards and although I thought about not mentioning my request, I decide to do so anyway. I asked for prayer for my daughters and their mother as they go to the cottage for the week. I asked for safety for them. I also mentioned that this is the first time since we've separated that they've gone to the cottage without me and I'll be alone for the week. Nobody seemed to pick up on the emotional aspect of that for me, comments were made about the need for bug spray etc. but that "first" for me just went over everyone's head. So, I let it go. That was what I thought might happen and that's why I was hesitant to put it forward, but took the chance anyway.This is often how I feel in dealing with others who've never been through what I have. They don't understand the pain that comes up even years later for "first" events like the first cottage trip, the first family picnic etc. That's when I really feel alone. But, I could have explained further about the emotional aspect of my family going away without me and the feeling of loss but hey, it's a prayer group not a therapy session! Anyway, a lovely prayer was said for my family and their travels which I appreciated greatly but, again, there is a lonliness when you recognize that others just don't get your pain. I guess everyone feels that sometime. Just my thoughts for this morning as my arm heals from football. I never get to play football so I went out and bought a ball for the picnic. We were gonna play, and we did!
