Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

Tonight has been pretty uneventful. But, I will say that things are definitely less tense and stressful at home. We've gone a stretch of 4 days now without R talk (except MC) and I can feel the stress level lowering.

I thought more about the "cohabitating" piece. Though I somewhat agree to an extent that is what is happening, I also don't think it's necessarily a bad thing right now with where we are at. We haven't had a stress-less time together in nearly 2 months. Even if we are cohabitating, it doesn't feel like that. We're slowly becoming more comfortable with each other again, she's coming to me for affection, and I'm just DB my butt off and doing the things I should have done for my family a long time ago.

And, I quit smoking cigars. Used to have one or two every day. Haven't had one in 3 days. That's HUGE for my wife. I told her tonight as we were playing cards that it's been pretty tough to quit smoking while at work (stress relief at lunch). We've talked alot about my work lately, how stressful it's been, yada yada, and she's been supportive to me about the stupid stuff going on at work (she LOVES to hear about my work day, i think it makes her feel involved). Anyways, I can't remember how she said it, but the message was, "I'm happy you quit smoking cigars, that's a huge step, but I'm being cautious because it's only been a few days."

Also, I quit biting my nails about a 10 days ago. It's always been a nervous habit of mine, and ADD induced. I can't believe that after nearly 25 years of doing that, I just STOPPED. I decided one day I wasn't going to do that anymore. And, it stopped. Which, by the way, that habit drove my OCD wife INSANE at home. She looked at my hands tonight and said "Wow, I can't believe what a few days has done to your hands, they look great."

I almost brought up R talk tonight but narrowly escaped it. She was staring into space while playing cards at one point and I did the old John stuff, "What's going on?" Nothing, she said, but I could tell something was stressing her. I almost went into "Talk to me, I can tell you're stressed" speech, but stopped myself. Wow, nice to meet you Mr. Willpower.