I tried, I changed, but still am getting divorced!

[newmama]

S' fever is fluctuating between 100 and 102. He crashed at 5:30 (2.5 hours earlier than normal) and kind of whimpers every now and then as he tosses and turns back to sleep I will take him in tomorrow if he still is running a fever above 100.

But I am restless...I mean I can't relax because I am aware that S is sick! I can't focus or get engrossed with a task...talking on the phone seems ok.

Usually I am occupied with S until 8 p.m. so it is weird that I am "alone" yet not alone since he is upstairs.

GM, I understand what you are saying; I get it crystal clear!

On a different subject, it is strange how familiar being single is to me...I guess it is because I was not in long term relationships prior to stbxh, whom I met at 28. Therefore, I have now been single for 29 of my 34 years...85% of my life! weird.

Oh and today I threw away the following books:
DR and DBing (SORRY I LOVED THEM BUT DO NOT WANT THE BAD ENERGY!)
His Needs, Her Needs: How to Affair Proof Your Marriage
Surviving an Affair
Not Just Friends
7 Principles for Making Marriages Work
and one other that I am forgetting

I replaced them with:
Getting the Love You Want
Getting Past the Breakup
How to Have a Fling to Detach from Your Ex*
JUST KIDDING! hahaha!