Half Way There

[punkin]

Thanks everyone. Yes, I do feel today was a sort of personal victory. In that he got to see that I am strong and able and going on without him.

In the strangest way, I feel a calm. The only time I looked up at him was his back as he left for the cash register. And you know what? I didn't feel a thing. Nothing. Not anger, not fear, remorse, grief. Nothing. Just carried on my conversation with my friends and finished our lunch.

This calm has me puzzled.