I'm a plan ahead type of gal myself, but projecting into the future and "what if's" are not good for people like you and I at this time.
When/If reconnections occurs, you'll know. And at that moment, somewhere deep inside you'll know whether or not what is right for You.
When I think of how long some of us LBS's have been waiting, I think of the old song "Delta Dawn" Do you remember it? About a girl that believes a man loves her and waits and waits until her entire life passes her by. I refuse to be that woman, for any man. That's not love, or standing. That's obsession.
Having kids makes N/C difficult, I understand, but you can still do a good job of being so dim he can't see his hand before his face.
