Hi Hoosier! You know...since I follow your sitch, I've also followed along with your story of Texas guy...
I'm glad you simply asked him what is up...I just want to warn you that you are likely to get an answer of "nothing is up, why would anything be up? Its always been casual, I don't want a relationship, I've been honest about that since the beginning, blah blah blah".
One of the things I had to do after divorce was learn everything I could about men and dating...as I did want to get back into the pool but didn't have any skills and no clue what was going on out there. So as part of this sort of man-and-dating-training, I learned this: even if a man acts jealous about something, it doesn't MEAN anything. They can be jealous without having feelings for you. (Not that Texas doesn't have feelings for you because he does but...) when you mentioned he was edgy because he worried you were on a date, I know it is tempting to think that they get jealous because they want us for themselves. But as it turns out, this isn't the case. They may even be jealous if a gal friend (truly just a friend) has a date. Jealousy in man-language may not be attached to romantic feelings. It appears to be something else entirely.
Hon - Texas guy was a great stepping stone for you. You got to FEEL something again. You got some great fun, conversation, and warm fuzzy feelings from it all....
But he's not the one for you. You know that already, I know.
The one for YOU will not make it any secret that he wants you all to himself. But to make room for the one who is yours, you gotta trim the low-hanging fruit off the vine (Texas guy) and make yourself truly available.
You have done so many things right so far, and this is one of them...by that I mean, you have waited all this time to heal from your whole ordeal before getting into a real relationship. I think you're ready now...
