find adventure, be someone new with new people. Surprise yourself.
I'll be a crossdresser!
Wii, OT wants you to surprise yourself for a change and there you go trying to repeat the same ole patterns.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
OK I've decided on my vacation. There's no stoppin' me now!
I'm gonna get my motor runnin' Head out on the highway Lookin' for adventure And whatever comes my way Yeah Darlin' gonna make it happen Take the world in a love embrace Fire all of my guns at once And explode into space
I like smoke and lightning Heavy metal thunder Racin' with the wind And the feelin' that I'm under Yeah Darlin' gonna make it happen Take the world in a love embrace Fire all of my guns at once And explode into space
Like a true nature's child I was born, born to be wild I can climb so high I never wanna die
Born to be wild Born to be wild
Yes, I'm goin' to a movie ...in the afternoon ...and have some popcorn ...with real friggin' butter!
Born to be wild! Born to be wild!
...and then if I'm not too spent I'll wash the car or maybe take it to a car wash and pay to have it washed! Born to be wild!
Any suggestions for a good place to get my car washed?
Your meanest neighbor's driveway when he's away- it's a win win. Free water for you and he'll be happy that someone washed his driveway for him with soap!
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
We have a clothing optional beach in Toronto... Anyway, yesterday after a long day of volleyball and football in 90 degree F weather (agency picnic) I went to bible study in the evening. We have prayer afterwards and although I thought about not mentioning my request, I decide to do so anyway. I asked for prayer for my daughters and their mother as they go to the cottage for the week. I asked for safety for them. I also mentioned that this is the first time since we've separated that they've gone to the cottage without me and I'll be alone for the week. Nobody seemed to pick up on the emotional aspect of that for me, comments were made about the need for bug spray etc. but that "first" for me just went over everyone's head. So, I let it go. That was what I thought might happen and that's why I was hesitant to put it forward, but took the chance anyway.This is often how I feel in dealing with others who've never been through what I have. They don't understand the pain that comes up even years later for "first" events like the first cottage trip, the first family picnic etc. That's when I really feel alone. But, I could have explained further about the emotional aspect of my family going away without me and the feeling of loss but hey, it's a prayer group not a therapy session! Anyway, a lovely prayer was said for my family and their travels which I appreciated greatly but, again, there is a lonliness when you recognize that others just don't get your pain. I guess everyone feels that sometime. Just my thoughts for this morning as my arm heals from football. I never get to play football so I went out and bought a ball for the picnic. We were gonna play, and we did!
I also mentioned that this is the first time since we've separated that they've gone to the cottage without me and I'll be alone for the week. Nobody seemed to pick up on the emotional aspect of that for me, comments were made about the need for bug spray etc. but that "first" for me just went over everyone's head. So, I let it go.
Yeah sometimes you just want to shake people into seein ghte paini you are going through but I guess they can't. Another spin on this is I think that some people don't see it as the end of the world like we sometimes feel it is. I remember I was so worried for so long about how people would react when I told them stbx and I are D'ing and just this week I told someone and they said, "Oh really?" and then made some other non-reactional comment. It felt... good in a way.
