My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Goodfight -

Please have patience with your self! This is NOT easy work. You have stood for 21 months! Are you kidding - that's AMAZING! Will read your thread ~ but my initial input is to keep coming back to who YOU are ~ why are you standing ~

I hit really low points just about every day ~ I know that I'm spending too much time reading about all of this and concentrating on it - but it helps me cope RIGHT NOW. I imagine my coping mechanisms will change as I get stronger.

I met with my IC today and really she just listens and questions me about why I think certain ways, etc. Right now I am REALLY struggling with the fact that in my H's current reality (which could be his reality for the rest of his life) I have meant nothing or I have been the root cause of all of his unhappiness. I am having a terrible time with this - primarily because I can't fix it!

Keep up your faith - keep coming back to the boards and reminding yourself about why you are standing! If it is what you believe - then it is the good fight!