Next Monday it will be 6 months since I got divorced, and nearly a year since I found out about the emotional affair, which then turned into a regular affair.
I still love my ex-h, and I probably always will. I met him when I was 17, he was my first real love, and we have two wonderful children together. He's not the same person that I met, but that's at least in part because he has some mental health issues that he has not and probably will not deal with. But I am feeling at peace with my decision to get divorced. I am so blessed to have a family that supports me, despite the fact that they are all devoutly Catholic and don't technically believe in divorce - even my Aunties who are nuns have been nothing but supportive.
I am so blessed that his family is still including me, because I met them when I was 17, too, and I consider them my family.
I am so blessed to have so many friends who are there to listen. Including my therapist!
My goals are: 1. to be a strong role model for my daughters, and to keep my relationship with my ex as civil as its been. 2. finish my degree 3. get financially secure (I'm on my way already) 4. to take care of myself
I do get bummed from time to time. I worry that I'll be alone forever, and I really miss a lot of things about being in a relationship - the sex, yes, certainly, but also the intimacy of having someone there who knows everything about you and still accepts and loves you. But he didn't, and that's what we all deserve, so I figure if I focus on living my life and being happy, that good things will come of it.
