So I couldn't take it anymore....got together with my friend and she gently coaxed me into the XXXshop and I bought a toy! I feel so pathetic but it has been 3 months and I am starting to climb the walls. I am finding myself looking at any male and thinking he'll do! It is pathetic.
I have never considered myself someone with a high sex drive but then again I have never had it deprived either.
I had even thought of leaving the packaging in the garbage so that he would see it....like somehow this will hurt him?!! I know he isn't going to care because he has moved on but I just wish I could do something so that he feels the hurt that i have been experiencing.
By the way he is back from his little getaway to Vegas. It was so nice those few days not having him around....not wondering what time he will be in or if he will even bother to come home. Now he is back and we are back to the same crap again. I went to toronto last night to see a friend for dinner and he asked what time I would be home b/c I was leaving our D with him. I said did it matter and why did I need to give him a time when he doesn't have to give me a time or even if he does he doesn't ever adhere to the time given.
He then informed me that just because he was no longer employed did not mean that I could now do what i want and he would still be out between the hours of 5pm and 6am. He then said he has a part-time job to go to....and he is referring to the gambling! It is insane-he refers to gambling as a PART-TIME JOB!!!! What is wrong with his brain???? He is totally nuts. Well tomorrow he finally sees the lawyer so I will see what they come up with and hopefully it won't be too damaging.
M=42 H=51 Common-law 6yr Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son Bomb dropped January 2013
