I have been praying for me, my kids and everyone on this BB but it seems things just keep getting worst. I've also prayed for strength and to help my H get through this and hopefully find his way home to us. But for the past 2 yrs whatever I pray for the opposite happens. I don't know why.
M:28 H:30 DD-9| DD-7| Baby- Due 11/10 T-14 | M-8
10/08- Bomb 4/09- Failed attempt at Marriage Fitness Program 3/10- WH moved out. 7/10- Informed me he's filing in Aug
"God works in mysterious ways" Don't scream, I've always felt that was a catch-all phrase myself. But maybe, and this is a tough one for me, maybe you need to try and see what God wants, not want you want. My favorite is "God's will never takes me where God's love doesn't protect me." Try to focus on what it is he wants you to see about yourself, not your H. Frankly, your H is God's problem. Not yours.
Now that I sound like the bible thumper of the Southeast . . . .
I'm not at all. I'm as backsliding a Christian as anyone in this town. But I try. That's all God asks, really, that you try. And for this one, you have to try for yourself. Trust me, I'm writing this not just to you, but to myself, as I have to remind myself all the time of the very same things.
I am trying, thank you for your post. This is the hardest I've ever tried in my life. I have so much to fix, but not enough time to save my M I think. But I'm working on me daily for my girls and for myself. I have self esteem and trust issues thanks to my parents and I don't want my girls to go through the same thing.
I'm backing away from my sitch. Only communication btwn my H and I is through text and email. Beginning to hate texts bc it added to the loss of intimacy in my M and also too Much communication at times. But anyway. I haven't spoken to H since Sunday. And I probably wont till he comes to see the kids next wknd. I need the space too. I still see him as my H where as he already sees me as his ex.
I need to get my head straight.
M:28 H:30 DD-9| DD-7| Baby- Due 11/10 T-14 | M-8
10/08- Bomb 4/09- Failed attempt at Marriage Fitness Program 3/10- WH moved out. 7/10- Informed me he's filing in Aug
2, I had n/c with H from Dec to June and by then I was really fed up with the whole situation. In June it was S's 18th which prompted me to contact him and we've been in contact since. However, the time apart was really good for me and gave me lots of strength and resolve. H definitely viewed me as his X. Keep posting if you feel you need support.
Just concentrate on fixing yourself. Your girls and yourself are your most powerful incentive. Show them how a woman steps up and leads with confidence and self assurance.
Please look at what you've been able to accomplish already on your own. Your girls sound like they're doing great and that's while your H has been off his rocker.
Your H is still spinning wildly. Stop allowing him to drag you into the vortex with him. Stop reacting to what he says and does. STEP BACK! Ask yourself why you keep letting him suck you in. You can't believe a thing he says. When you do, it changes. Do you see a pattern? Break it!
The things your H is accusing you of are projections of his actions and thoughts. Ignore them and do not let them hurt you. The truth is all you need as your shield.
YOU can NOT fix this! It's not your fault, it's not your job. Let God handle it. Once you truly let it go, you'll feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.
2, I know you love your H, you wouldn't be here if you didn't. I'm asking you to love yourself as well. Save yourself first. Detach from your H's drama. It doesn't mean that you don't love and care for your H. It means that you think enough of yourself and your children to make sure that you'll all come through this better than OK no matter what happens.
Start by believing in yourself and your capabilities. Give yourself the credit you deserve for all you've accomplished and continue to accomplish. You can do this.
I logged into my Fb acct, & I know it's just a FB app, but this was waiting for me today.....
On this day, God wants you to know ... that your unspoken prayers will be answered. Yes, God knows you, God hears you, God loves you, God is there for you. You are blessed.
Hmmm... am I reading into it too much? It's a coincidence considering what I said yesterday.
BTW how can I find you guys on FB?? I'm a fan of DB..but I still don't know how to find you LOL
M:28 H:30 DD-9| DD-7| Baby- Due 11/10 T-14 | M-8
10/08- Bomb 4/09- Failed attempt at Marriage Fitness Program 3/10- WH moved out. 7/10- Informed me he's filing in Aug
