Still working on enjoying life without my WAW, but.....
Last night I decided it was time to do something different. Prior to our last vacation, when things seemed to be getting better, I would stop by WAW's apartment for tea on my way home from work. So..last night I texted "tea?". Her response was "sorry, not home". We exchanged a couple of texts, but I managed to resist the urge to text again when she did not respond to my last one. I also managed to not say that I had heard "our song" earlier in the day and that it made me miss her.
I have really been missing her the last few days, but have done everything I can not to show that to my kids or tell her.
I am really hoping she decides to start coming to my house again on Sundays to make dinner etc. I have told her that she is welcome to come again, but will make sure I don't do anymore than that. I have to let her do it on her own and be comfortable.
Tonight, I am going back to the counselor I was seeing last year. I am hoping that will help me to clear my mind and make sense of some things.
