Partner left after 9 yrs - reconciled now married!

[AliSuddenly]

Thanks Gypsy...you are right, except I found out since she had the same convo with my BFF (at the wedding!!) and that her reason was she thought it was ME that needed to work through things and that I needed to grow up in order to marry him and if he hadnt left that wouldnt have happened.. so.. she got it back to front!!! Of course, her son is her blue-eyed-boy (green actually) so he obviously didnt have demons and she sees it that he was justified in leaving me. That really hurt as I had been upset that we had been together 9 years nearly and he still hadnt asked me to marry him, when I was more than ready and telling all my gf's I wanted to M and have kids before the bomb.. but she doesnt see any of that.

H has been a bit withdrawn and when I ask why he says "I'm just tired". This rings alarm bells as thats what he said before the bomb. I addressed it with him, but he says its different this time, he IS just tired and he would tell me if it was anything more, but that he cant stress enough just how solid we are and I never need to worry. He hasnt been taking his ADs every day though, so I asked him to make sure it is just tiredness and not a low mood descending.

K.. I am on the pill now for 28 days, so no ovulation this month Then I do injections and then we go in for IUI in September and test on 28th. Our diagnosis so far is "unexplained", so thats helpful !