cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

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Found out from my BIL (H hasn't text me at all just like I figured so I asked BIL to keep me posted) that the family is waiting to make arrangements until they find out if oldest daughter's H can get back from Afghanistan soon. He was originally going to be back at the end of September so right now he is getting debriefed so hopefully it can get done.

Today is S's 3 yr check-up. H is coming to it. I am also giving him the papers today. Last night I did not sleep well. I had a dream about H and OW. At first I was mad at them, then by the end I was warning OW about H and befriending her (there are things he has done that I have not put on here because they are bad). Strange. Also before bed I yelled at S that I needed to be left alone (PMSing big time so I need some me time) and he cried for daddy. I talked to S and now he is great, but still very hard.

Yesterday I signed up for the mandatory parenting class. I am so much more at ease about it. It takes place on Saturdays so no worries about S during the week and being tired and fussy. It is at the public library 0.5 miles from my house, and it only costs $40. I thought it would be $150 so all positive. I am going Sept 18. There is one next weekend, but I can't go because of helping my SIL with our winter resale.

Overall sad summer is ending, excited about my future, and scared to start a new year because so much is new this year. Half our department retired last year so new colleagues, new room, new life (Ding), new nurse, new students as always. I am also going to be a mentor to one of the new teachers so that is an honor to be chosen. All good stuff, but scary.