Just concentrate on fixing yourself. Your girls and yourself are your most powerful incentive. Show them how a woman steps up and leads with confidence and self assurance.
Please look at what you've been able to accomplish already on your own. Your girls sound like they're doing great and that's while your H has been off his rocker.
Your H is still spinning wildly. Stop allowing him to drag you into the vortex with him. Stop reacting to what he says and does. STEP BACK! Ask yourself why you keep letting him suck you in. You can't believe a thing he says. When you do, it changes. Do you see a pattern? Break it!
The things your H is accusing you of are projections of his actions and thoughts. Ignore them and do not let them hurt you. The truth is all you need as your shield.
YOU can NOT fix this! It's not your fault, it's not your job. Let God handle it. Once you truly let it go, you'll feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.
2, I know you love your H, you wouldn't be here if you didn't. I'm asking you to love yourself as well. Save yourself first. Detach from your H's drama. It doesn't mean that you don't love and care for your H. It means that you think enough of yourself and your children to make sure that you'll all come through this better than OK no matter what happens.
Start by believing in yourself and your capabilities. Give yourself the credit you deserve for all you've accomplished and continue to accomplish. You can do this.
