I had a rather emotional day today....It was my D's B-Day and it's the first one since the bomb. Today I really missed us as a family....my thoughts were going back to the day my D was born and to the many B-Day celebrations we had as a family. We always made a big production out of her B-Day. Planning elaborate b-day party themes, H was always so involved.....it hurt today and I missed it all...and him the way he used to be.
H took D & her BF to brunch, spent about 1 1/2 with them, gave her a present and was done....when he picked her up he asked for his sleeping bag. I didn't ask why he needs it, but D did...he told her that he is going camping. Again in the past that was something he would do with D...they had a father/daughter yearly tradition of going camping for a few days....this year he is obviously going without her....
As she was waiting for H to pick her up for brunch D also commented that he is late...again...and how strange it is, because he never used to be like that. She noticed the same thing I did...In the past he was the kind of a guy that was everywhere earlier...but never late. Interesting that D noticed it also....
We still had a nice B-day celebration tonight....even without H. I baked her her favorite chocolate mousse cake...her request for every b-day (btw also H's favorite cake...D said...good at least dad will not eat all of my cake lol) and had a nice dinner with D my GF and D's BF. Presents, cake, candles, a glass of champagne...the kids then headed off to a party for D at her BF's house.
But I must admit...it was a though day..I was sad...and resentful that H robbed D of that special family togetherness, and those loving memories you crate with each family celebration.....we were a broken family today....it just wasn't the same
Last edited by Mila; 08/11/1005:34 AM.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
