Another set back though for me tonight. I was putting some stuff in my W room and I came across her new birth control pills. She hasn't taken them for years but I guess she is active. I guess I already knew deep down but actually seeing them set me back.
It was upsetting to see but I imagine this will make me stronger.
I'm so sorry FFH. Just reading that made my heart drop and gave me a lump in my throat. I know that doesn't really help, but I feel really bad. I'm looking forward to getting separated myself. I think once I am out of the house I will be able to erase W from my mind for the most part, as long as I don't spend too much time alone.
Time to completely drop the rope man. You have got to get on with your own life and stop worrying about her. It is the most difficult thing you have ever done, but you have to accept that she is gone and begin to live your life for you and your son. As R2C likes to remind me, there are only 3.5 BILLION women on this planet and you will find someone you can be HAPPY with. Maybe even happier.
Or, maybe once you FINALLY drop the rope, she will see that you are no longer pursuing her and she will pursue you instead. But, YOU CANNOT RELY ON THAT CHANCE or you will never completely let go,which is what you HAVE to do.
C'mon buddy. You can do this. Be strong like I know you can. We will get through this together, chins up and PROUD of what we have accomplished.
Take care of yourself and continue to come back to BOTH gove and receive support from all of your NEW friends. We are here for you, if only electronically.
