Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

Had a dream last night, H was in part of it, but only briefly. I don't remember the exact details but in my dream I talked to H and he was saying something that implied he wanted to work things out. Then oddly, while the rest of the dream had nothing to do with him, I had the weak legs again.

E-mailed H this morning at work to let him know of my vacation plans with DS. He responded that he hoped we have fun and put in a smilie face. I didn't answer. It hurts when he tries to be friendly because all I can see is the man I love choosing to not be with us, to not be part of our family any more.