Can't believe it is over 21 months and I'm still sad. I think it is the part of being lonely all of the time. Never did I think it would go on this long.
First in November then in March we were together for a brief couple of hours and in March talking about dating (never happened, H said a couple of days later that it wouldn't be a good idea) and now not a word since the end of May. Only through our daughter, had a problem with the lawn mower and he told her to tell me where to take it etc.
Doing the NC thing I thought would help more than what it has, H just makes sure I know what he is up to by telling D13. Knowing that she will come back and tell me, which I don't understand why he does that at all. Asks D13 if she likes my boyfriend every couple of weeks (which I don't have).
When this first started (the separation)I would call H and either cry or complain and since April I haven't done any of that and nothing is changing for the good at all as far as our M.
