I'm doing my research to find an attorney. I have several months worth of texts, but I don't think they're admissible in court.

When he files, I'm signing.

I give up and I feel I shouldn't have to fight, force or convince anyone to stick around with me and my kids. I'm done and I'm beginning to hate him for being such a damn coward and creating a situation he's not willing to fix. Why the hell do people create families before they "find themselves" I gave up my entire life for him and the kids, and I don't regret my girls at all. How dare he think he needs to be single in order to advance in life. He makes me sick.

What's done is done, I'm not contesting the divorce, there's no point at all. Nothing will change, it'll just drag out the process and make me suffer longer. Eff it all!

When my kids are old enough I'll show them all of the books, time, websites, money, and effort I put into trying to save the marriage for their sake. Which is more than anyone in any of our families have ever done. I'm the only idiot that didn't give up. Had I given up and had no hope 2 yrs ago, I'd be over this by now, and have moved on already.

M:28 H:30
DD-9| DD-7| Baby- Due 11/10
T-14 | M-8

10/08- Bomb
4/09- Failed attempt at Marriage Fitness Program
3/10- WH moved out.
7/10- Informed me he's filing in Aug