I think the main reason you've come so far so fast in all of this, CD, is because you've been a good learner! You've taken what you've been told and APPLIED it, not just listened to it. Even when it was counter to what you were feeling, you did what Puppy or others have advised you to do. That's why I say a page or 2 back that action is what is most important. The actions lead you when your feelings don't. You've been a great student and it shows!
Even with the apologizing for your 50%: that's something I advised some time ago and stick by. I agree that once you've done that you don't need to repeat that. You do it once - sincerely - and then it's time to move past it.
You're doing great and have come a LONG way in a short time! Be proud of that!
