I just want to disappear right now. I'm sick of dealing with this, with all of this.
I'm angry and I want to get revenge and hurt him/them; I want to play the game (ie call my mom or his mom at that and tell them to tell him to move out). and a the same time I want to ignore them all.

I want to fast forward past all this crap

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.