Seriously, I think your head is in the right place. I think it's okay to be cautiously optomistic as long as you are prepared for any outcome, which you are.
You are strong and wiser, and maybe, just maybe, your W wants to try a leg on your train. Keep doing what you are doing - it seems to be having an effect.
He: WAH Me: LBW Precious: DD
~ I'm grateful for every day I have to improve the way I relate.