cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

Yesterday I went to my room and finished up the prelim stuff. Then did some stuff at home. Then went grocery shopping and then went to have the phones split. IT TOOK 1 HOUR! It shouldn't take that long.

Anyway just a long day...this morning I checked on H's aunt's status. She is not doing well. Slowly slipping away which is sad. I wasn't close to her really, actually i am not close to much of H's extended family because he never wanted to do stuff with them which is evident by me still going to stuff and him not. What got me is last week Aunt and Uncle celebrated their 34th wedding anniversary. Uncle is not a talkative guy. Actually I don't think I have ever talked to him (H says the same). Uncle is very private, but on the blog Aunt started and now the cousins are keeping up to date, he put how much he loves her even after 34 years and will always love her, and on and on. It was so beautiful to read. That is when I started to cry because Aunt was the one at the baby shower who put it bluntly that I needed to be back with H and now we are Ding and H could care less. He doesn't care that he has split up a family and completely ruined everything.

Now I just pray for the family that they will have peace as they say good bye. I am also praying that one day (not soon, but one day) I will have that same type of love and marriage that I always dreamed of. I thought it would be with H, but now it will be with someone else, as long as Mr. Right is somewhere out there.